Hi all you faithful readers (ha ha ha),
I'm resurrecting this blog...you can all breathe a sigh of relief. LOL. Why did I stop writing? I don't know. Why did you stop reading? Prolly cause it has been over a year since my last posting. Details!
I'm quite a different person than I was last summer when you were reading this blog. Things have changed. I'm more passionate about God, and I'm less passionate about God all at the same time. Every Sunday I cry in church because I feel the ways God is moving, but yet I feel like sin tempts me more and more.
I try to love others, and yet I am more quick-tempered than I've ever been. I have developed a heart of compassion I have never had before but sometimes I wonder who my true friends are and I don't trust others easily.
I'm insecure, yet sometimes I get too full of myself. I've started to care more about my appearance. I get my hair cut at the expensive salon and I don't think it's ridiculous anymore, yet I look in the mirror and see someone who's aging, who's 32. Even the ads on Facebook know my age. I can't escape it. I am trying to look like a girl these days. Look out, world.
I have started to realize I'm just Natalie. And, Natalie is a woman created by God to do good things. I'm excited by that. I can go easy on her when she makes mistakes because I know they're just temporary. When I was a child, on the door of my bedroom was a sign that said "Please be patient. God isn't finished with me yet." Well, I could still have that sign on my door today because God is still working on me. I went to Russia on a mission trip in May and I started to slow down enough to hear the small voice of God that normally gets drowned out by the lawnmower or the emails I get. It was awesome. But, how can I live within His will daily?
I have also started to realize I don't have to fake it. I don't have to make time for those who won't make time for me. I can invest in those who love me, and not have to please everyone who doesn't. It's very liberating. I still hate conflict though.
So, there you have it. There is how 2008 Natalie is different than 2007 Natalie. Stay tuned to this blog. Those who know me well know I have lots of opinions on about everything. And, you probably don't need to read this to know my opinions. But, I hope you still will.
Nat's back in business...kinda like Daddy Day Care. :)
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4 comments:
Yay!! I actually just checked it last week to see if you had updated without telling me! Glad you are back.
Stacy
Looking forward to reading more...turning the tables and seeing what makes you tick...:-)
I love blogs!!! It lets people see you. I like to see how you think. I am glad I gleaned this off of Facebook. It has been a long time, but I still have fond memories of grade school and at Cass
Funny- and fabulous- how the summer allows us the time to pause and reflect. I resurrected my blog this summer as well. Ditto on the balance between the hectic nature of daily life and making sure I'm connected with His will. It's more than a notion but a journey worth struggling through. I'd love to hear about your mission trip.
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